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So the first week of school is over and now I enter the second week! I have survived it! I'm happy to report that there were no pee pee or poo accidents! It seems we have a great preschool class! Of course we had the crying and separation anxiety, But they (the children and the parents) settled in to the routine quick enough. We did have our first fire drill and that went pretty smooth, too! The biggest situation I had to deal with that involved a funny poo situation was when one of the boys was in the bathroom for a long time....I went to check on him and he still had his pants down bent over...I quickly saw the problem...He was try to blow a lump of poop that had somehow managed to get on the seat, into the toilet! I told him to wipe his bum, come out, and I'd take care of it. Hey, shit happens at any age! I didn't even bother to ask how it happened. Soo all I have to say is week one is over Wish me luck on week two!
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Soo I got my tattoo, my tribute to Kevin as a way to try to mend and reconcile with his passing....And I don't want to harp on his death....I know people will get tired of hearing, tell me to move on....But my grief is still strong....Ohh I'm functioning and able to work and deal with life in general....But still I get pulled back to Kevin....Songs I hear....Sometimes the supermarket trip (just remembering of when we shopped together gets me)....And now he haunts me in my dreams.....I think he is trying to tell me to move on too.....My latest dream: I was in a place I loved when I was a child/teen....A cottage in Maine.....We vacationed there every summer....There was a bedroom with two beds in it....One by a window where you could get the smell of the ocean and a bed on the opposite side by the other wall....I always loved that room for some reason when my family went there in the summers....I always got a good vibe in there and chose to sleep there in the bed by the window...That
Recovering and On the Mend
It has been nearly Nearly 2 months since Kevin's death and burial. I have been working and getting on with life. I do miss him something awful, but the pain has lessened somewhat. Working with the kids has helped; family and friends being around has helped mend my broken heart. I have kept myself busy and trying to get back in to photography. It is Feb break and I'm on vacation for a week. I don't have too many immediate plans. But on the last day of my vacation, I am slated with a great tattoo artist, to get a tattoo in memory of Kevin. He liked sharks, soo I'm getting a tat of a shark design on my left back blade. It should be interesting. I have a tat on my lower left leg already....Soo this isn't something I haven't done before. But it has been 17 years....Ha ha....My second tattoo, a tribute to Kevin! I think it will help me in my grieving process and look nice. I will post later when I get it.
Devastated Update: It's All Over But the Memory
Kevin is truly gone....The wake was the 4th, funeral Mass was today. I was there from beginning until end for both of course....I am exhausted, drained, and numb (with relief and sadness)....It's all over, but for his memory.....I could "feel" Kevin with me the whole time....At the wake, where everybody was focused on the family of course, I did get some condolence and comfort (it was a woman I did not know who was asking uncle Johnny where Kevin's girlfriend was and I happened to be sitting quietly near by....As Johnny pointed at me I looked up and said that I am the girlfriend....My name is Thea....She hugged me and offered me comfort)....It was a "strange" feeling as I felt a little forgotten as the family is very "overwhelming"....But I was remembered....More surprise for me.....The family asked me to do a reading and I road in the Limo with them.....I have not been a part of the family while Kevin was a live (mostly due to Kevin)....But they seemed to really be trying to let me in
Devastated-Update Update
Kevin has been gone since the 21st of Dec....Me having found him on the living room floor that evening when I got home from work and the days doings....I still can't get the image out of my head....I can't forget the plans that we had made for 2024....They are not to be (at least not for the two of together on this earth)....I am still at my parents apartment (again only going to mine to feed the cat).....I need some sort of closure....Now I am religious....I do believe in God....But I'm also angry....I feel failed by God (and by Kevin....Because I know it was his doing that he is dead....But I also feel God might have intervened....I don't know, I'm quite sure he sent his angels to help but Kevin didn't listen....I'm soo conflicted).....I asked that Kevin see the light ( well he saw the light...Just not the way I wanted).....It is New Year's Eve....I got together with a good friend....For lunch....Now I said I believe in God, I believe in something beyond this Earthbound plane.....But
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Eweeeeeeeh, school will never be the same for me again