ShopDreamUp AI ArtDreamUp
Deviation Actions
Christmas time is upon us...A time for giving and sharing of oneself. I recently came across a situation that broke my heart. My mother and I were in a BJ Whole Sale outlet, shopping for nothing in particular....just looking for Christmas ideas. Well, we came across this Christmas tree that had children's wishes on them...children from shelters in the area. My mother and I decided to take two and grant what they wanted for Christmas. I chose a sixteen year old girl who wanted makeup and nail polish, my mother found a 4 year old boy who wanted Fisher Price anything. Simple gifts...others were looking for music devices and gift cards and such....But as we were about to leave, my mother noticed on wish list card from a 13 year old girl....I want a pizza for Christmas it said! A Pizza! Something we all take for granted...I eat the stuff every other night on the go! Here's a girl who has nothing and for Christmas, she wants a pizza...not I tunes...not the latest electronic gadget! It just broke out hearts to read it! We had to do something, but the problem was how...where would we find a place close to her to get pizza? I found the phone number of the organization running the Christmas wish tree....I explained the dilemma...the woman on the phone was very grateful and directed me to a pizza place in the area that they deal with. My mother and I took the card to the pizza place and showed it to them, explaining that we wanted to get the girl small pizzas for at least six months! The pizza place was astonished at the requests and pleased to help...We paid $60 in gift cards, and the pizza place matched us by doing 5 additional free large pizzas for her! This is truely the Spirit of giving! We weren't expecting that! This 13 year old girl is going to have here pizza for Christmas and then some! I think she will be very happy, whoever she is! Just goes to show that the things in life that are soo simple and we take for granted, can bring joy to someone who doesn't have anything! Soo the moral is please look around and help, give, support those who may need a leg up or just something to cheer them up! This is the season for it...and it should continue all year round! By the way...if anyone reading this is from Malden MA or surrounding areas and would like to go to BJ and do something with a wish (there's still plenty I'm afraid)...please do so...I urge it!
Dreamscapes
Soo I got my tattoo, my tribute to Kevin as a way to try to mend and reconcile with his passing....And I don't want to harp on his death....I know people will get tired of hearing, tell me to move on....But my grief is still strong....Ohh I'm functioning and able to work and deal with life in general....But still I get pulled back to Kevin....Songs I hear....Sometimes the supermarket trip (just remembering of when we shopped together gets me)....And now he haunts me in my dreams.....I think he is trying to tell me to move on too.....My latest dream: I was in a place I loved when I was a child/teen....A cottage in Maine.....We vacationed there every summer....There was a bedroom with two beds in it....One by a window where you could get the smell of the ocean and a bed on the opposite side by the other wall....I always loved that room for some reason when my family went there in the summers....I always got a good vibe in there and chose to sleep there in the bed by the window...That
Recovering and On the Mend
It has been nearly Nearly 2 months since Kevin's death and burial. I have been working and getting on with life. I do miss him something awful, but the pain has lessened somewhat. Working with the kids has helped; family and friends being around has helped mend my broken heart. I have kept myself busy and trying to get back in to photography. It is Feb break and I'm on vacation for a week. I don't have too many immediate plans. But on the last day of my vacation, I am slated with a great tattoo artist, to get a tattoo in memory of Kevin. He liked sharks, soo I'm getting a tat of a shark design on my left back blade. It should be interesting. I have a tat on my lower left leg already....Soo this isn't something I haven't done before. But it has been 17 years....Ha ha....My second tattoo, a tribute to Kevin! I think it will help me in my grieving process and look nice. I will post later when I get it.
Devastated Update: It's All Over But the Memory
Kevin is truly gone....The wake was the 4th, funeral Mass was today. I was there from beginning until end for both of course....I am exhausted, drained, and numb (with relief and sadness)....It's all over, but for his memory.....I could "feel" Kevin with me the whole time....At the wake, where everybody was focused on the family of course, I did get some condolence and comfort (it was a woman I did not know who was asking uncle Johnny where Kevin's girlfriend was and I happened to be sitting quietly near by....As Johnny pointed at me I looked up and said that I am the girlfriend....My name is Thea....She hugged me and offered me comfort)....It was a "strange" feeling as I felt a little forgotten as the family is very "overwhelming"....But I was remembered....More surprise for me.....The family asked me to do a reading and I road in the Limo with them.....I have not been a part of the family while Kevin was a live (mostly due to Kevin)....But they seemed to really be trying to let me in
Devastated-Update Update
Kevin has been gone since the 21st of Dec....Me having found him on the living room floor that evening when I got home from work and the days doings....I still can't get the image out of my head....I can't forget the plans that we had made for 2024....They are not to be (at least not for the two of together on this earth)....I am still at my parents apartment (again only going to mine to feed the cat).....I need some sort of closure....Now I am religious....I do believe in God....But I'm also angry....I feel failed by God (and by Kevin....Because I know it was his doing that he is dead....But I also feel God might have intervened....I don't know, I'm quite sure he sent his angels to help but Kevin didn't listen....I'm soo conflicted).....I asked that Kevin see the light ( well he saw the light...Just not the way I wanted).....It is New Year's Eve....I got together with a good friend....For lunch....Now I said I believe in God, I believe in something beyond this Earthbound plane.....But
© 2014 - 2024 Miss-Tbones
Comments10
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
I'm Hopkinton MA! Is that anywhere near Malden???